i had a nice dream. in which a scenario which i hope will happen. but i know it's never gonna happen. NEVER! it's so not gonna happen. i'm sad. nah, sad's not the word. i yearn for ur coming back. but never is it gonna happen.

anguish overwhelmed mi. overcomed mi. overtook mi. u failed. but i failed terribly.

i was so prepared to go out until the rain came.

i hate you!

the bursary's here. guess i'd have to take it alone this year. no more moms, no more dads.

last year this day. i was wif him n gang. at esplanade, den to semb near raymond's house. they left after drinkin. we went 588. it was boring. but i got a choc from his fren. i'm relieved i didnt take any photos wif him. lucky. blahs.

i'm paranoid i guess. such stupid things i do. such childish things. tryin to mske him notice care for mi. but yea, it's dumb. everytime things, plans screw up at the very last moment. maybe we werent meant to be. i wasnt lydat in the past i hope. but well, ppl change. so damn lot things happen this year. too much to handle. simply too much.

i hear ppl's toking downstairs. screw these ppl. cant u juz tok softly.

i wanna sleep. can i juz sleep forever? duhs.

it's dumb. wadeva i'm doing now is dumb. i mean who would be so free to interfere with other ppl's life? i'm gonna change my blog add again. soon.

every song i put represents every phase of my life. n ya, i noe tat's how u feel(verse 1). but i wun change. so wun u. maybe we aint compatible right from the start. so please dun apologise to mi for a wrong u didnt do. coz i'm simply the one to be blamed. not u. i dunno where i stand in ur life. but guess i'm juz someone unimportant. so i've simply no right to give u any cold shoulder, vent my anger on u. i'm in a dilemma. but i juz cant care anymore. i cant take it anymore. i juz cant. so juz let go. there's so many better girls out there. maybe u'll find someone better. u will find someone better. u will. maybe someone who stays near u. someone who aint so childish. someone who aint so unreasonable. someone who aint so demandin n mean.

happy 2006. but i'm not happy.

niahahaks. changed my blog skin again. comments anyone?? hahas. i'm bored lahs. i dunno how to do the java project. especially at home. think i've gotta do it in sch coz home, with those 4 monsters, is my onli distraction. n i've to buy 20 oranges again. *yawns.

wanna cut my hair soon. SOON. haiz, i've actualli no idea wad i should do to my hair. cut? curl? straighten? ahhhh. wadeva.

i miss my darling. =(

nvm. i'll get to see him HOURS later. wahahaha.

i'm losing it. boo~

aites, time to go. time for my bunnies. think sis aint coming home tonight again. bwah! good thing, the com is mine tonite. muahahahas.

oh ya, someone said i was happening. LOLs. =D

lalala. went party world today. saw my darling. so slack n fat seh. muahahas. was damn bloated coz i had THREE DRINKS! lolx. i finished the tidbits. hahas. omg. am gettin fat. wahaha. sing, sang, sung. den went to the arcade after they ate coz there's too many ppl at k pool. played the 'air hockey'. hahas. fun. won three times wif ky. yeah~! hahas. den played pool after tat. i won twice coz my 'opponents' had their black ball going into the wrong hole or the white ball simply went in with the black ball. niahahaks. we still won. tsk tsk.

i had a dream. it's nice. but as usual, anything/everything nice had an end. boo~

few more days before the countdown. bf, please wake up early on tat day. hahas.

watched king kong. super sad seh. *sobs. but kinda sweet. everything seems so simple n nice when u're naive. somehow. blah blah blahs.

- such beautiful dream yet ugly reality -

i wanna go Andana Spa. i'm so tempted. but it's 148bucks for whole day with free flow of food!!! i wan a sponsor!!! please? hahas. maybe i shall juz pamper myself for once if i get enough pay. =D

aites, i wan to go out. balcony seems nice. they've gt a jacuzzi rite smack in the centre of the 2nd level. so cool lor. but imagine urself in it wif ppl u dunno surroundin u. it'll be weird. hahas.

i so so so so so need my sleep.

arghhhhh. i juz cant seem to upload tat song. BOO~

anyway 2nd sucky thing. cant find the song i wan.

3rd sucky thing. my sis STAINED(with pen ink) my NIKE BAG. suck la.

i need a drink. blehs.

i wanna go ralcony. tsk tsk.

niahahaks. went to the pool wif xf. but as usual. wrong day wrong timing. least we wun drenched in the rain. LOL. saw this couple trying to sun tan in the pool. rofl. so dumb seh. den lie in the path way as if they're very slim. something tells mi tat they're from jc. blehs.

aites, plans for the whole week:

wed: out wif my darling maybe, or sentosa wif xf
thurs: out wif my GANG -wahahas- to k box or partyworld n play pool =D *i need money. any sponsors? wahahas.
fri: no plans yet (please tell mi wad to do!)
sat: count down hopefully.

watched superfunkies. the aqua park or sth at east coast seems fun. ppl, let go n play. pls? it's till 10th jan. n dammit. i think no one's free to play wif mi. =( sadded. blehs.

i need to go shopping. seriously.

anyway my hand wrist hurts. i dunno y. having a headache. damn. nah, i dun feel well. feels wierd these days. something's wrong. something muz be wrong. with mi. everything's turning upside down.





- i want you here tonight
- and i need you by my side
- for just one more moment
- juz, one more moment

utterly disappointed.

haha. someone got shocked by my song. WAHAHAHAS. shant mention his name if not i'll get killed right on the spot next time. hahas.

today is boxing day.

anyway as usual flip gt bully by boxer as i've mentioned. but clever thing is he jump back to his cage willingly on his own. *applaud* hahas.

mochi n boxer went on an excursion on their own when i left the door open. had a hard time catchin mochi but boxer came back on his own when i gave up on him. lol.

i love chattin.

oh ya did i say? my stomach had been feelin damn weird after 23. duno wth i ate wrong. boo~

mochi = mu ji = 母鸡

hahas. mochi realli look like a hen sometimes. hahas.

I LOVE FLIP!!! i think flip love to be covered by the pillow. hahas. SO SUPER DUPER CUTE!!!!!! OMG! hehe. but he gt chased by boxer again. damn boxer. so naughty. I STILL LOVE FLIP. omg i'm so in love wif him. lol. muahahaha.

suddenly i tot, those who seems to be poor are filthy rich. those who seems rich are poor. lolx.

anyway it's xmas today. didnt bother to go out today coz some fat ass WOKE UP LATE. was damn fed up so stayed at home. spoil my mood onli. so slept. watched princess diary. so nice seh. chatted wif a couple of ppl n my so-called scandal. who some fuckin bastard(my ex) thinks tat i've something on wif him. hahs. wadeva. dun i hav the right to mix with anyone i like? onli one word for tat bastard/jerk/wadeva : ASSHOLE. hahs.

time for sweet home alabama. so farewell.

anyway, i think sis's room is gonna be horribly rip apart by those little monsters. hahas.

anyway yest, celebration(steamboat) at jm's house. feeling damn sleepy. i won a few rounds of daidee!!! wahahaha. left at ten plus after eatin the log cake. quarrelled wif him but everything's alrite. hahas. bought vodka. originally tat pig wanted to go town to watch king kong. but too bad i didnt bring my ez link. hahas. haha. stayed at mac till one plus. finished the bottles of vodka in case my dad finds out. vodka, not realli nice but still adaptable. someone called mi while i was headin home n during the quarrel. being attitude, i said hi n walked off. i suspected it was jolin. didnt manage to look properly. so apologies here. sorry!! saw bryan wif his stead. hahas.

anyway he stayed over coz there's simply no way he could go home without any transport. bathed, fed those monsters before i went to bed. it's nice to hav someone to sleep beside wif at times. but i swear i'll kick him off the bed if ever, HE, OCCUPIES 3/4 OF THE BED again. FAT ASS. blehs.

anyway, it's nice to have a good to bully bf. muahahaha. oei bf, u still owe mi sth. PLEASE REMEMBER TO WRITE IT FOR MI. hahas.

anyway, fat fat is forever eating. n did i say dad ask sis to give away her bunnies? *sobs. sadded. still findin some animal lover to help keep them.

anyway did any one really i was using anyways for every start of the paragraph? hahas.

anyway i so god-damn tired coz i onli slept at bout 3 plus or 4 last nite? n coz of some fat ass occupying more than enough space i almost fell of my bed. my bed aint huge okie? hahas. aites, love my darling. tsk tsk. *muacks. n i swear(again) tat i'll bite u if u bully mi again. blehs. keke.

anyway i need to sleep. i'm LACKING OF SLEEP. so well good nite n merry xmas to all n happy new year to all. hahas.

blah blah blahs. i'm dying my hair soon. woohoo~ =))

fuck u ppl. fuck u.




i still love my darling more.

it's been long since i've blogged. too many things had happened. 2 days back was mom's bday. happy belated birthday mom. luv ya.





i love my darling~ =)




i'm proud of u.





i miss u.





*muacks. =D

u onli notice n care for ppl of the opposite sex n not ppl of the same sex to seek attention from them.

THE UNDENIABLE TRUTH.

y is it such tat one take others for granted? shallow. real shallow. if u dunno bout anything bout mi, concerning mi, my thoughts, my life, my wadeva, den PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP! coz its so fucking fake to pretend tat u noe mi inside out. n oso, fake tat u care coz in deep truth is u dun. u onli care bout URSELF. wtf. wad's the fuckin point of being nice/treating others nice when u're taken for granted. they dun even bother bout u. even if u're dead or alive. coz they simply cant be bothered. they cant be bothered. they're busy enjoyin themselves onli. they can onli be bothered bout themselves. nv botherin to ask. tat's how self centered some ppl are. the world revolves onli around them. THEM onli.

such lousy frenz i've gt.

shallow. very shallow. look beyond the horizon.

cant u all juz be abit more SENSITIVE?